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Lately I’ve been feeling a bit down…

My energy levels have been low

My mood was leaning more towards sadness and depression rather than joy and enthusiasm

And that’s fine… That’s life. And I am cool with it (still don’t like it though)

I was about to start writing about a super tricky topic that I still don’t deeply comprehend but then said fuck it, I will make it lighter for me and you — well mostly for me because I don’t want to burn too much mental energy this early in the morning :p.

The topic I wanted to…


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I am definitely getting addicted to this shit (blogging).

After writing 3 blogposts last week, I thought I will take a brake for now and stop sharing this much about myself, my life and my learnings. But the temptation is simply too big. Well, I also use blogging to release some of the tension that gets built inside of me if that makes any sense…

Anyway, this night I felt that it is finally time to talk a bit about energies.

Yep, energies, haha…

Never in my fucking life did I imagine myself writing such a sentence 🤔

But here…


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Why didn’t I kiss her ?

That was the question that occupied my subconscious and then conscious mind…

It was a nice sunny day. We were heading back to the city after spending the morning in nature. I was super chilled out, spent most of the time spacing out and the mental state I had was close to being stoned…

In addition to nature and the group I was with, there was a girl, a girl I felt attracted to and I felt that she was also attracted to me. During the time we spent outdoors, we had some funny…


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One of the most important lessons I learned in my twenties was how limited my energy is. It is basically the store of raw value that we use in our interaction with the world. Being quite scarce and limited by nature, how we exploit it ends up deciding what kind of life we will be living.

At the beginning of my twenties, I wasn’t really exploiting this life energy of mine well (this is a personal assessment by the way). I was mostly following a predesigned tract (studies, work, family, etc…), with no intrinsic motivation whatsoever except continuing down this…


Right now I am feeling way more human than I ever did all my life.

This might sound cryptic even stupid especially since I am not saying that while being stoned. Well, not deeply stoned at least.

Before I tell you why, here are a couple of events that happened during the last couple of weeks since I came back to Tunisia and that led to this new milestone in my life:

  • Finally after 3 decades, I started connecting with my younger brother on a deeper level. Still have a lot of work to do to redeem myself
  • Started building…


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It’s been exactly 4 months since I came back to Tunisia

I knew that I will be having what I like to call a ‘reverse cultural shock’.

And I had it… Now I feel it is time to move to the next phase: Performing!

I am not gonna lie: The last months were quite chaotic for me

Well, the last 2 years where like this (the longest period I stayed in one place was 5 months in Berlin).

And that was tiring… Enriching on a new different level, but exhausting.

Me coming back to Tunisia fitted perfectly in this self-triggered…


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My head is buzzing with lots of thoughts and some ideas.

I am not sure what I want to write about but I am sure that I want to write about something.

There are many topics that are currently occupying my unconscious and conscious minds, some of which are:

  • How to start getting some money out of my company while minimising the taxes I’ll need to pay to stupid governments
  • How to re-adjust my investment strategy to hedge my myself against what I consider I imminent collapse of the stocks markets
  • How to meet more interesting people here in Tunisia

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Why I am feeling this sad

I am feeling really sad

Oh man… I hate this feeling…

I am playing the field. At least when it comes to the first stages of seduction…

I can see which girls are attracted to me. I can assess how much they are attracted to me. I can see when some of them stop being attracted to me. I can also see how others get more attracted to me.

Fuck, I can even play with the emotional and sexual tension to calibrate some girls’ attraction levels up and down

And I enjoy…

Most man…


Last weekend, I went back to visit my family in Sfax, my hometown in Tunisia…

I remember how I used to love my city when I was young…

Then this love turned into bitterness once the societal, cultural and religious ‘software’ that got dumped into my head failed me miserably when I started transitioning from the passive dull student life to a more tense and challenging ‘adult-like’ life. That was 6–7 years ago

This bitterness towards my hometown, its society and even its people started to disappear as I decided to question almost everything I learned (especially when I was…


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I didn’t think I will be writing about this topic this soon.

Maybe it’s my sickness that got me to open up even more.

Also still think there is a bit of stupidity in what I am doing here. But what the heck. Let’s do it…

By the way, this time I am sharing one of my personal journal entries as it is, raw and uncensored (well except of some names). It’s the first time ever I do this and strangely enough I feel quite comfortable doing it…

All my life, I’ve only been intimate with a couple of girls…

Ahmed Omrane

Life is way richer than what I thought

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